new yr? gosh... how come this yr i don't feel the new year-ness. seems like normal everyday life.. my gawd.. this means that im getting older! alaaa.. 18?? not nice laa.. i like to be 17 heheex.
Today, i went out with Raudah to study the upcoming computing Ut.. being us bimboos bergers, we totally forgot that its a public holiday.. n therefore, the library is closed!! hahah we laughed out like hell when we reached there.. how could we both possibly forget its the FIRST of JAN today.. khakaka.. n so.. we lepaked in the Sultan Mosque to study.. but still! havent finish laaa until its time to go home... grrr..

i totally forget that.. the end of every year, which is 31st Dec.. is my parents anniversary.. woahh.. its like.. 27 yrs oredi for them.. hope it'll remain forever. Also.. 31st Dec is the death anniversary of my brother.. Yah.. though i never met him.. but my mommy told me alot about him.. he was born in the 1984.. yah.. 4 yrs older than me.. he lived for only a day... Poor poor baby.. he was named Muhammad Rasyad.. what saddens me is when i imagined my own mother.. being terribly sad on that moment.. i mean.. she had carried him inside her for like 9 months.. n delivered him safely.. only to know that he passed away hours later.. so so sad laa.. she told me that after the funeral.. she cried n cried because it was raining... n thinking that her son was all wet inside the grave.. awww.. she is a strong woman indeed.

N so, for tomorrow... my last day of holiday.. i wish to stay at home.. plz plz plz... i have to clean my house.. i don wanna go back from school just to see a dusty messy terrible sight of my house.. grr.. n also.. need to prepare all the clothes to wear.. so wont be late for classes.. sometimes i think that wearing uniform is better.. coz u wont have to sit infront of ur wardrobe each morning just to pick what to wear.

ok hmm my new resolution is? hmm i donno.. to be a better person i guess? well, frankly, 2005 is the worst year i've went through.. haizz... n i thought that 17 is always the sweetest n heppiest moment.. gosh im wrong.. plz plz 2006 be a better year plz.. hmm to think what ustazah sukarti always said.. azam itu bukan buat pada awal tahun.. tetapi.. pada setiap hari.. setiap hari itu mstila dijadikan lebih baik dari hari semalam.. true2...shall remember that ; )

wassalam..~