What a day has it been for me. Im so embarrassed goin to sch with swollen eyes. even my classmate n arafah said so. Bengkak is the word. That’s wat will happen if u cry to sleep at nite. Cant help it. I need to let them out. Im terribly sad. Its suppose to be a happy day for me.. 10th of Feb.. The day I was born.. N now im exactly 18 years of age. Somehow I was tested too much. Firstly it’s the o lvl result.. Well.. Yah I better say it out. I retake my o lvl.. Ya ya.. I don wanna fail again ofcourse.. My father's money.. Don let it go down the drain. Im such in a nervous state right now waiting for the result. Plz plz.. Not let me fail again.. Ive worked hard for it okeh.. Lahaa ma kasabat wa alaiha maa kasabat ..( can I use that verse?)

N the worst thing of all.. My fon.. My beloved fon.. My one n only fon..how can I be so careless? My gawd.. These ppl.. Y must they steal.. Y y y! plz think how others feel laa.. Did I ever steal b4?? If I really did unintentionally, perhaps it’s a retribution..* keep praying*. Its lost last nite last nite! Wasted.. Waited so long after school for silat training.. End up didn’t do silat at all. Well, a bit only la. It goes like this..

The girls were only me, aini and marya. Around 7 plus, we went to the toilet to change our attire. Hmm into the cubicles we went.. Yah I hanged my tshirt n jeans on the door, n went outside to put on my tudong. Being clumsy n careless like always.. I just went out like that once ready.

So… I helped bring the silat stuff outside n all from the cabin.. Den did my magrib prayers.. Y cant I even remember my clothes were still inside!! Its such a long time then I remembered. Den the training started.. Everything as per normal.. When just about to warm up, I remembered, told cik mail I left something in the toilet n he permitted me to go. N OH MY GOD! The clothes were there.. But not my fon! The fon was in my jeans' pocket. Somehow my money was there.. The person took only my fon… how could she?!?!? Plz plz.. Hopefully she took it to return it to OSC..

I was totally stunned. I asked the girls inside. I didn’t even know them. They too helped me searched here n there. Who knows its one of them.. I dono.. Cant accuse anyhow. I went out with legs feeling very weak. I cried immediately. I saw them doing the run oredi. So I joined in. I run with them. Seriously, I didn’t feel the effect at all. Im running but my mind was totally not there. Cant remember how many rounds we took. Im not tired but im grasping for air coz im crying hard while running. I think Cik Mail realised that n he asked me to search again. N dats it! totally not found! Cant continue any training that he asked me to tutop gelanggang. I just sat there thinking about where could it've been. I called my dad n hes terribly angry. He asked me to go home instantly. But I continued sitting there.. I wanna go home late.. So that he'll go to sleep.

Ya Allah.. Ive been tested by u again today.. Give me strength to go through this. Forgive me if this is a retribution. I know… "la yukallifuLLahu nafsan illa wus'ahaa" .. Now.. I have debts here n there.. N need to save up for a new fon.. Haiz.. Im not rich.. N im tired of giving tuitons. I want to be a totally full time student. Thought I can go shopping after debts cleared.. But ney.. Have to resist again.. I remembered resisting my temptations to shop with my friends coz i wanted to buy a new fon.. Haizz.. N its gone. So.. Farewell is the word. What I wish to happen today on my birthday nvr come true. Only God knows wat I wish for.. N some of the gerlz. Instead, the world has turned its back on me. God.. I need ur blessings..

Sorry to those who wish me via sms that I cant read it.
To those who had wish me. Thank u very much. Appreaciate u all who've tried to cheer me up.

Arafah: I treasure ur waiting till 12 am.
Raifana n aisyah: tanx for the post.
Rain: tanx for the effort to repeat the same msg on email
Dyl & kaklong : tanx for the page n wallpaper. Such a surprise when I returned to class. Anyhow touch my laptop! Haha
Shirley, Hazel n Beth aka S.H.E of our class: tanx for the cute earrings n bracelets. I love em!! Shall wear it tmr!
Emma: tanx for the pen holder! Totally beautiful!!! I wish I have my fon that I can take picture of it n show u all!
PD0106: tanx for bdae song
Miss Grace Tan: the beg is nice.. Plus all the open house stuffs..tanx!
Taufik: tanx for the voucer.. Ure the fers to hand me a prezzie ..weee~
To everyone who wished me verbally or MSNly: THANKIU! U all made my day




This is wat dyl n kak long had drawn on my screen! a wallpaper. also a page on ppt!! haha
Cute arent they...