I miss having a group friends. A group of friends I can eat with, sit with during breaks, and at times like this, study together.

Studying alone is good when it comes to hafaling subjects. But when its problem-solving? I guess friends are the best consultants when its just unsolvable.

N here I am, studying at home, struggling to solve even when I dont understand it. Its pretty sad alright, seeing students coming to class, lectures, all the way to school in clusters when myself surviving alone. Sigh. I cant blame anyone though. They have known one another since poly days or since year one. I cant help but to always assume others wont like me bugging in to study with them or so. I know I might be wrong but I just dont feel good anyway.

Being an adapting freshie isnt easy. Just how long is the adapting phase God knows. Being in school is not as exciting as I thought it would be. Whenever Im in school, I always feel "nak balek.. nak balek.. nak balek!" Perhaps home is the only place I feel belonged for now.

Im having my first paper this wednesday. I musnt complain though. My friends are taking 5-6 papers. Oh, I feel their pain. O well, maybe because of this I dont feel its right to bug my friends to study together. They have other subejcts to drill. And im studying for a subject that is up one week later? Hrmm.

Ok nvm.

Having a father in the same discipline can be good thing when you need help. but oh u know fathers.... z z z... He'll start to give me books!! old old mechanic books of his time. And all I asked is just a question about torsion.

Nvm. Folks are cute.



Ok now what I need is a long hot shower. Good night!