I am finally back! like wow! finally! It has been months... i knoooooow......!
Dearest Azimah Aisyah n Zubaidah, I know u gerls have been patiently waiting n waiting for my kitchen fotos. they'll be up in my next post. promise! =)
this time for real.

for now, all i need is a breather. A break. Off. Off from everything. Im so packed up. Ive always thought that after exams life could get better, calmer, but heck! its not even an inch lesser.

School has been tough. No doubt. If previously I could say "sch's tough, but im tougher", tink it just doesnt apply for this sem. Like seriously. I had the toughest sem thus far. I felt something which I nvr felt b4 during those previous sems - its mega mental drainage.

It started off with those seems-like-never-ending projects. presentation, datelines, quizzzzzzzz!!! aft which shortly after came exams! superb! welcome to an undergrade life. I dont remember feeling this last yr. really2. I remember watching cartoons after cartoons till subuh coz there were no more classes n im just lazing around waiting for exams to come, wow! n yet, back then i was so not appreaciative enough. see lah now so different!

this sem everything is so packed up.close. just like plane [111]. Closely packed density. No room for interstitials to squeeze through.

I know i shouldnt complain. Complaining is bad. I wish i could be more positive just like my dear friend Azimah. She always hv this positive vibe that nvr fail to keep me going. =)
InsyaAllah I wont forget her never-ending advices regarding the ni'mah of 'ilm. =)
Tanx! that definitely kept me going throughout!

so much so of stressful mugging for 3-weeks-long exam period. I anticipated much for the VERY last paper last thursday. =) =) =)
n the following day on friday, i received an email from my mentor asking me to be in sch on monday 10-6 to kick-start fyp! wow! best belo! powerpack!

so where is my holidays now? where? where??? where???! tell me where's my break when i really need one!! at that point of time, i really felt like burning the school. though ofcourse, i didnt. Sigh.

When the mind keeps rejecting, the project ain't beautiful at all. Though the title is fine n managable. bleaargh! i know i should stop complaining, n start liking the actual fact! *somebody saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaave meeeeeeeeeee*

Fyp has been taking up my precious time. My precious time to train. 2 weeks left towards the comp and im all not prepared. I know im not there yet but quitting is not the game. Ive lost the touch n momentum. Its totally not easy at all to pick 'em up back. I hate the thrill.

Life has been pretty messed up. I cant sense any direction for now. Unclear.
Orang kate, ikot akal kekal. Ikot hati mati. so take ur pick. =)


Enough said.