U remember the story 'A Walk to Remember'?



Ive read the book and watched the movie more than once for sure. Its one of my fav story. Yeah so u can expect it as another lovey dovey angan2 kind of story since its my fav.

In the story, the girl wears her grandma's sweater to school. She wears it because she loves her grandmother and its a gift from her. It was the grandma's initially i guess, because its kinda really old fashioned and kids these days wont ever wear such sweater.

So this girl being very sweet, nice, kind-hearted and all those positive attributes u can think of, still wears it to school despite being laughed at by friends.

So I was thinking, if you are in that kind of position, will you still wear it to school or wherever you u go elsewhere? And the thing is, you too think it doesnt look nice, and look pretty awful to wear it. But still, its a gift that you think you should treasure, coz its from someone you love.

Its kind of a dilemma I am in. And honestly, Im not sweet and nice as the girl in the story so thats why this dilemma comes in isn't it? There wont be any dilemma if Im already so nice and just wears it though it looks really... well erm.. yeah u get my point. rite?

Unlike the story, my case is not about sweater. Something more expensive - a ring. Yes a cincin. Years ago when I was smaller, my grandmother personally gave me her ring when I was in her room. So u can imagine some "ancient" ring if its hers since she was young I think.

Im not trying to make it sound so bad but its really not like those shimmering diamond or sapphire or ruby. Its yeah gold ring with this green batu. Yes green batu im not kidding. U cn picture something like those nyonya jade by now right. Something like that. But its not jade. My grandma is not nyonya. She's a pure breed javanese Nyai. Perhaps, during that era it was really so beautiful. But now..........

SO Then, I accepted it la ofcourse, because at that instance I didnt have the heart to kurang ajar-ly say "tak nak lah nyai".

But up to this date, never have I worn that ring.

SO the problem now is, at times she would ask me where's the ring and all. Guilty yes I know. And today, my mom asked me. So I guess my nyai has had asked my mom about the ring's whereabout. Gosh I think she really wonders what has happened to the ring.

Thing is, Im not the kind who puts on bangles/bracelets/rings every time. Im not an accessories-girl. My hands are most of the time bare. Number 1, because Im lazy. Very lazy to dress up. Number two, because Im not so used to wearing those, so to put them on can feel a lil bit odd. I know I will have to start somewhere in order to make myself feel used to it. But sigh, each time it'll feel very odd. Number 3 is because Im someone who has quite low self-esteem. I always feel that those accessories never look good on my hands. Sometimes I feel that my hands are not as halus, soft and fair like the hands of most girls around me. Its like whatever they put on their hands is just WOW. but me? nyehh... *tak lawa bukak balik*

So ni kira da kes macam, da lah tk suka pakai pape bande, then if dapat something like really2 wow cantek and kene with me then ok lah jugak kn.

Yah u got my whole story ryte?
I know we have to jaga hati orang tua and all... but like this.... how?

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