When the stress is getting a bit too much.

I couldnt find time for my own space (except masti. heh!)
but yet, loads are nowhere near done. In fact, it seems like the loads are increasing exponentially each day. Huge i tell u!

I have no idea what ive been spending my time with.
I wish for a day when I can simply do nothing. I mean really nothing. Perhaps just breathe the fresh air... smell and enjoy the beauty of God's creations. Wonderful.
I wanna see how beautiful life is. Because I know it is. But the state that im in doesnt seem to be so.

I guess the things that are expected out of a final year final sem undergrad is a bit too much. No, not a bit too much. Its really too much! Its week 6 and im still in complete mess. I was never this messed up before. And by mess, I mean really unorganized. Because I know Im an organized person. I would usually have all my lecture notes ready, nicely binded beforehand, tutorials nicely done on papers and filed up for easy readings. And everything was almost consistent throughout.

But nowadays, when I wanted to go lecture and realize I forgot to print 'em out, I realized Im not being me. Something is just wrong that Im like this! And the fact that its already week 6 and not a single nicely done tutorial is completely horrible. I hate mess. Everything is just EVERYWHERE. I just couldnt find THAT time anymore.

And I feel extremely tired these days. I need that rest. I need that sleep. I need that long loooooooooooooong sleep to recharge. Im the kind who needs to sleep a lot. Because each sleep is light. A very light sleeper I am.

I wake up when someone talks.
I wake up when someone on the light.
I wake up when someone walks into my room.
I wake up when the cicak makes its sound.
Each day, I wake up at the first ring of my alarm tone.
Im the kind who wants the room to be dark n reallllllly quiet at night.
Im the kind who has a pillow covering my ear because I could hear the clock ticks.

sangat cerewet. heh. I know.

With all the unstable emotions Im going through. I dont know how much longer I can carry on.